12.9.2015

Today is a good day.
It's been awhile since I've had a good day.
I started my day at 6 AM, had a glass of warm lemon water, and then took Kyle, Phenix, and Muggsy out for a run. We walked/ran about 2 miles, and it was great. Kyle and I left the house before 9, and I was early to work. The dogs are (hopefully) worn out, and I feel energized.
I'm making my way through my 128 ounces. It's a lot of water. I'm going to need a way to either add flavor, or make the portions smaller. My goal is to drink about 10 ounce an hour, and be done by 6 PM. That way, I'm not up all night in the bathroom. It's easier when I'm at work and the water is staring me in the face. When I'm at home, or in the car, it's much harder to remember to get my ounces in.
So far today, I've exercised, drank almost half my water, and I've been at work for two hours. I feel amazing. I want to work on these goals for a few weeks before adding more, so as to avoid overwhelming myself. I don't want to get burnt out, I want this to be my life. I want to be healthy, and happy, and feel like this every day.

On another note, Kyle is totally getting into this as well. We went for our walk, and I was totally prepared to walk with him, because of his knees, but we ran, and it was awesome. He loved it. After we were finished, I took a shower, and he worked on his arms, with the resistance bands. THEN he made green smoothies for breakfast. I was so proud.

As I've been making my way through the day, I've realized that I thrive on a strict schedule and list of tasks. I do so much better when I can take a situation and create structure around myself. I think, as fun as it's been, the past few years out of school have been super hard because I haven't had any kind of structure. While I was in school, I had that as a framework for my life. I was expected to be in class at a certain time, and finish my homework before that time. Towards the end, I was wearing thin against the structure, so when it fell away, I didn't find anything to replace it. Even after getting a job, my "structure was lax."I've had a flexible schedule, and then filled my free time with Netflix and naps. I had nothing to work for, and little interest in finding anything.

Because of this, my health has faltered, I'm unhappy, and unmotivated. Starting this journey has given me focus, and a reason to get up in the morning. When I arrive at my goals, I'll be that much more motivated to set new ones, and push myself into a new level of excellence.

I've been thumbing through old pictures, from college, and such. I've gained so much weight since then. Granted, I've gained a husband and a dog too, but I don't want to be that person. I've always struggled with body image and food, but I'm done with that. I'm ready to embrace a new way of life, and get down to a manageable weight, and live a full life.

I'm over half way into my water intake for the day. I've come to realize that it's best to drink as much as you can every time you take a drink. It's so hard to get all this water in. It's especially hard when the water here at work tastes SO GROSS. I would be better off buying a second Fiji bottle, and filing both to drink, and then supplementing the last 20 ounces with tea, or other sources of water.